Omg its been like such a long time since I wrote something here like omg! I think I crying OMG!.....
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Currently, I'm still without a school...should I panic?
hmm I never fail to surprise myself at how.. unconcerned i can get when it comes to matters like these. Everybody else is busy doing something and here I am, typing this haha. Mum cringes when she sees me wake at 4 in the afternoon, do I resemble a half rotting carcass with decomposing skin and flesh peeling off my maggot infested face? Maybe more of a zombish, but still cute/adorable and huggable/smoochable, panda with major dark circles issue...no wait, its eyeliner, painted over her gorgeous eye yeaaaahhh~ Not too bad i guess.. brushing my teeth isn't even the first thing I do when I wake anymore 'ewww gross!' beat it bitch I still brush my teeth, just at irregular timings.
I googled about personal hygiene awhile earlier.. interesting.. i suggest you do that too kids, its way more beneficial than reading my rants.... or not.
I'm a genius! Why didn't i register for a regular college or something, yes I do qualify for those thank you very much.
school school.. i want a pretty uniform in red with a school crest and blazer that'll help me fry in local climate. Then I'll bring a pink ass umbrella to prevent myself from frying.
I took the entrance exam to NAFA a few days back and i drew a load of crap. I'd probably be sulking if I haven't been feeling so hyped up recently and also, I took comfort in looking at some other people's work...un :] I gave up halfway through but had to pretend like I was still doing something because that examiner/instructor person/guy was sitting directly in front of me a few tables away and and every time I looked up its as if he's staring at me with that I'm-watching-you-not-doing-anything-while-the-exam-has-yet-to-end-and-this-is-leaving-a-very-bad-impression-and-telling-me-what-kind-of-lousy-student-you'll-turn-out-to-be look and I'd turn away slowly "looking for inspiration" then pick up my pen and draw lines on my work hahaha its ugly anyway so who careshhh and and the people there geeeez they looked so damn intimidating I felt like crying and wetting my pants.
Ease up man! We're gonna be classmates, if I make it that is.
I was thinking of turning this into a art blog, but I'll still randomly rant about stuff whenever I feel like it, but then again I doubt I'll have enough artworks to post cause I'm L-A-Z-Y like that.

Why can't I change the colour for this? I don't want stupid pink backgrounds or stupid pink borders dammit, I want stupid pink fonts, FONTS! Is it my mac or has xanga gone &^%$& during my absence un.

Finally I'm having a day off so I guess I'm just gonna sit around, rot a bit, maybe complete a few meaningful task and yadda yadda bla bla bla.
When you spend half the time while you're conscious standing around a crowded shop floor, just simply watching the world pass and hoping that time would fly a little faster, it pretty much burns a big hole in the back of your brain; giving you space to think.
I'm 25 days into living the life of a 16 year-old, shouldn't I be out there somewhere, dreaming; fighting for so much more, fall and learn, get back up and fight some more?
It's like when you start to notice the changes in yourself but will give it all for everything to remain the same just because you know that it was so much better the way you were.....
Ha, we can all pretend.

hmm Topman; the paragon of humanity
everyone there is so fucking awesome I feel unworthy <<< I need a happy face at the end of that to make it not sound emo, and I need another one here
so first there are the ones who left; Adam and that fucking ah beng look-alike, Kendrick, thanks for teaching me everything....

I
Shall
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I feel like crap
Come back CamCam?
Its so complicated but then again, to a certain extend, its retarded..
Teach me how to be smart?
'Cause I feels like its my fault things turned out this way
I wanna make it all better for you
I can't
Maybe I'm taking this a bit to hard on myself?
She's so selfish, she's so stupid, she's so reckless